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Hello there eagle, hope you're fine ! Can i request a part two of Nozel cheat on Leon ? Maybe i can ask for a wild mereoleona discovering her little bro ? And i'm sorry for your heart, i give you a hug.

Hey there guys, I know i took quite long, but I really hit some language block there >.

I really hope you like how this turned out, I am a bit unsure myself, because I was met with so many problems I got stuck at? Like, what kind of rooms did Nobles have? What do you find in the middle of a forest? How can I introduce new characters without them being eventually absolutely and completely proven as wrong and unreasonable by cannon in time? 

I found no answer to the latter, sadly. If anyone would like to give me constructive criticism, hit me up, Im down to learn!

Also the scenario is under the cut cause it did turn out quite long (about 4800 words) and i feel bad for spamming the tag.

I hope this doesnt cause trouble on mobile, if yes, send me a message and i will take the cut away :)

Anyways, have fun and I hope you like it!

His feettook him away from the house. Faster and faster.

He didn’tcare about where he went, his mind was still reeling with all these thoughtsabout what happened.

Nozel touching someone else…Nozel kissingsomeone else…Nozel cheating on him…

Leon wasbarely aware of his surroundings, he was in full flight modus. His anger andfear threatened to swallow him, and truly, he didn’t know what he would do ifhe would lose himself completely in his emotions.

He saw fireflickering in area around him, coming to life due to violent outbursts of hismana, which were a direct reaction to the images haunting his mind. It was likehe tried to burn away what had happened but instead he just damaged the housesand streets in his way.

Thank god there are no humans out right now.

It was ahuge loss of control, something he had never experienced before.

He lookedup at the sky. It was sunny and clear and really not what he needed right now.Soon people would start to go about their day, shopping, playing, talking… ahappiness he wouldn’t be able to bear.

He foundhimself on the outskirts of the city soon, behind it fields and forests. Heused his enforcement magic to charge straight into the woods.

Thewilderness of clover embraced him. He came to in a place where the sun barelymanaged to breach through the leaves.

He felttired and without direction.

Now he waslost in more than one way.

Good

He sat downon a fallen tree, and just stared out into the dimly light forest.

He feltinterestingly calm, no, numb would be a better word for it. He knew it was thecalm before the storm, the ebbing away of all the water before the tsunami cameback to relentlessly crush all that was in its path.

And thatwould be his heart.

After allthat had happened, he knew, it was going to be painful. And that he would neverbe the same again.

It had tohappen any minute now. The emotions would drown him, he would not withstand andbe torn to shreds.

I will just stay here and become new soil forthe kingdom. Alone. In peace. Never to be hurt again. Never to be loved again.And also, never to love. Just calm and empty like these woods.

He sank hishead between his hands.

‘Wow Leon,aren’t you a little melodramatic now? Dying from heartbreak? Oh god, this iswhat my I have become’

But really, can anyone blame me? Regarding whatI just lost…

Tearswelled up in his eyes and he buried his face even deeper in his hands.

Here goes the end

A sobwrecked through his body, silent and calm, like the nature around him, givingno hint as to what was going on inside him.

‘Don’tworry, you have been this much of a sensible idiot since your birth! Believeme, I was there.’

Thefamiliar voice behind him made his body tense, he didn’t dare breathe.

This place is not so empty after all, it seems…

‘And now,how about you tell me why you came thrashing through my hunting grounds like awounded beast? You really disturbed my prey, you know that? You better repay mein sake!’ A throaty and warm laugh echoed through the glade.

He mentallybraced himself to face her.

‘Oy, youknow we don’t see each other that often, so how about you use that chance andat least talk to your sister!’ A warm hand was placed on his shoulder and hetwitched unconsciously before relaxing into the touch.

She satdown next to him on the tree trunk, facing him, without ever stopping to talkto him.

‘Especiallyafter I came all the way here to find out why you are so sad. So how about youtell me why you are crying, you little idiot brother of mine, hm?’

The lastwords had a rather fond and soft tone, and Leon grimaced at the thought of justhow miserably he must look right now that even Mereo would show concern likethis.

He took adeep breath and might or might not remove some snot with his sleeve, nothing hewould ever confess to if asked, then turned a bit more in her direction.

‘Just arough day, nothing to worry about.’

Mereoleaned back a bit, looking at him with a face that clearly showed that shewasn’t buying any of that.

Leonaverted his eyes.

‘Really.’

He felt asmack on the head, the pain shortly rendering him helpless, and found himselfin his sister’s grip, held by his collar. She was pissed.

‘I wouldsuggest you not trying to lie to me so badly, especially when I am here tryingto look out for your stupid ungrateful ass. I know exactly what you are likewhen you are throwing tantrums, and this here is not this. So, you have tenseconds to spill and tell me who’s ass I have to kick for making me see mylittle brother cry.’

He reallyappreciated her words, he knew she meant well, and he was equally touched tosee her care and glad that she was there for him. He could not, though, bringout the words for the life of him.

Every timehe tried, it felt like the words were stuck to his throat, drying it up andmaking him swallow hard. He felt like they were plugging his lungs, making ithard to breath. He was drowning again.

Also, themental images of Nozel loving another man came back, and so did hisall-crushing-tsunami-wave-of-emotions.

He wasembarrassed with Mereo seeing him like this, tearing up and choking on hiswords. He felt hot and cold and started to get dizzy, too.

He was awreck.

Mereoloosened the grip on his collar and just placed a hand at the side of Leon’shead.

He looked ather face, which was so similar to his own, and was met with a stern andconcerned look which he probably would have given himself if he would havecaught himself like this, lost, panicking and in the middle of nowhere. Heclosed his eyes.

This isn’t like you Fuegoleon Vermillion. Youare more than this. And it is time to face reality, and to let her help, if shecan. You shouldn’t be alone. You aren’t alone.

‘Nozel,he…he cheated on me’

His wordswere quiet, and when he didn’t hear an answer he wasn’t even sure he actuallyspoke them out loud.

He openedhis eyes, and through the blurry veil caused by his tears he saw Mereo’s faceunchanged. Leon blinked his tears away, though one escaped him and rolled downhis cheek.

Suddenly anerve on the woman’s face twitched, her grip on his shoulder got painful and thetemperature in the close area rose drastically. Her face showed pure anger, anda fire burned in her eyes like it came straight from hell.

Then herexpression calmed down. She was still furious, but the temperature went backdown to normal.

‘Do youwant me to take care of him?’ was her only question.

He shookhis head.

‘Actually,I just wanted to get my thoughts straight in peace. Can’t be in the city rightnow.’

‘Mind if Istay?’

She tookher hands of him and started to rummage through her clothes, bringing out aflask which she then offered to him.

Hegratefully took it.

‘No, not atall.’

The twosiblings stayed in the forest next to each other for hours, not saying much.They just passed the flask between each other, until Mereo left for a while andcame back with two bottles of sake. They continued to get drunk in silent, butfor Leon it was so weirdly comforting that she was there for him. She might be alittle rough around the edges sometimes, but she was a strong shoulder to leanon. And get smashed with.

He sighedas he emptied his bottle, knowing that it was time to get back. He had a job todo in the morning, a life to continue. No, a new life to start. After all theseyears with Nozel by his side it would feel weird and empty.

Just wrong…

His heartstarted to hurt again, and he rubbed over his eyes to get those damn persistenttears to go away.

Mereo nextto him just watched him silently, then shook her head.

‘You know,I would ask you if you would like to talk about your feelings, but we both knowthat this is not my forte.’

‘Is okay.Would be to weird, too, considering that we never did something like thatbefore.’

He grimacedat the thought of how that would conversation would go.

She laughedout loud.

‘Yeah,let’s not start with that. I guess, it was always Nozel you had been talking toabout your feelings and all that.’

He met hergaze.

‘And Ithink you should go and talk to him again.’

He wasconfused. This advice wasn’t quite what he thought he would get. He expectedmore of ‘Kick his ass out of your house’, ‘Burn the scum to smithereens’ or‘Lets just punch someone in the face’.

But he hada feeling deep in his gut that she was giving him a better advice than that.

Still… I can’t just go back and forgive himlike that.

He furrowedhis brows and looked away.

‘I don’tthink that this will be the best plan of action, sister.’

‘Listen, Iknow you think I just gave you some stupid advice here, and if I wouldn’t be sosure that an inept, socially clueless man like Nozel, who needed years to figureout his feelings for you and then proceeded to waste even more years to takeevery damn step as small as possible, just to be safe, just doesn’t have it inhim to cheat. Like, seriously, he is not one to rush into things like we do,and your guy really does have one hell of a one-track mind when it comes toyou. Has he actually told you what happened?’

Leonthought about it. His heart started to flutter in anticipation of a newrevelation. It was an unbelievingly uplifting feeling after all the dread ofthe day.

Well, she is right. He really is not quite likethat at all. And I left before he could tell me exactly what happened.Maybe…maybe there is still hope for us?

But what if not? What if my fears are true andhe really did intentionally cheat on me? Then this will hurt twice as bad asbefore an I really might lose myself.

‘Listen, ifI am wrong and he really is such scum, you can merrily come back here and staytill all my sake is gone. Also, you might as well tell me that I have beenwrong. But now GO, you look like you’ve got constipations, for god’s sake, sohow about you try to do something instead of just looking stupid.’

Yep, really not the best with emotionalpep-talks. Whatever, I might as well try.

He kissedher forehead.

‘Thank you,sister’

‘Get thehell out of here, you idiot brother. You can just follow your path ofdestruction out.’

He quickly left the small place behind and didas Mereo said. The path of burned Plants and ground led him back oud of theforest, then back to the city, then back to the house.

It was themiddle of the night, the houses were dark, and it was quite chilly. In thealready dark forest he hadn’t realized how much time had passed.

He took onelast glance at the building he had so many pleasant memories with. Memoriesinvolving Nozel.

He went upthe stairs leading to the door. Before he could touch it, it was openedalready.

Nozel stoodbefore him, blue eyes wide and adorned by dark shadows under them, face paleand puffy. He looked more horrible than this morning, and it was obvious thathe had been crying the whole time, too.

Leon didn’tknow how to react. On one hand, he didn’t want to do anything more than to justhold the man before him, have him feel better, but he was hurt, too, and hecouldn’t just swallow down the anger inside him, caused by the memories of allthe pain and grieve of today.

‘You’reback.’ Came the choked statement from the man before him.

He held hisgaze.

‘I am. Ithink we should talk.’

Nozellooked down and let Leon in.

They foundthemselves back at the Kitchen table where it all started, both equipped withtea, both not saying a word.

Leondecided to make the first step.

‘I want toknow what happened. All that happened, and just why. I am not here to forgiveyou yet, but I want to know if I should invest energy in trying to at all or ifit is a lost cause.’

Nozel nodded, then he shakily breathed in andstarted to tell Leon all that had happened.

­­­­­­­­­­­­­Hedidn’t anticipate this evening at all.

Not onlydid he have to spend a night and maybe even half a day with most of hisrelatives, no, the heart kingdoms royalty was there to visit the Silva’s anddiscuss some business with them. It was no big and very official event, sothere was no need to host a big party, but it was still expected of Nozel asthe eldest son to be present, involved and courteous.

He wasn’tin the mood to be any of that, really.

But well,there he was, dressed in a new suit, ready to leave for his family’s mainestate and spend the evening with fake compliments, useless chatter and thenalso punching out some contracts with the hearties in private, when all hewanted was to drink a glass of wine in peace, finish his book and stay withLeon.

Sadly, theredhead couldn’t accompany him, as it was a ‘Silva’s-only’ event and his familywasn’t that accepting of their relationship yet. They always hoped they couldfind him a nice fiancée, so he could get married and produce lots of heirs.Also, the whole Silva and Vermillion issues really sat deep within hisrelatives.

He went bythe living room, where he found Leon lounging on the sofa, doing just exactlywhat he wanted to do, too, and pouted a bit.

Leon sawhim standing in the door and put his book down.

‘Well,hello there handsome. I see you are all ready to go?’

Nozel steppedover to him and took a sip from Leon’s wine.

‘Now I am.Even though I’d rather not stay away to long, I am afraid I will be back aroundnoon tomorrow. Sure you can handle staying alone this long without causingtrouble, Vermillion?’

Leon shothim a grin.

‘Lookingfor a way out there, Silva? I am sorry to disappoint you, but I will be fine.Even though I can’t wait to have you back here, so I can get you out of thissuit.’

Nozel feltthe redheads hand wander to his hips, ready to pull him into his lap.

Now it wasNozel’s turn to grin at him. He leaned down, placing his hands left and rightof Leon’s head on the back of the sofa.

‘Yeah? Wellthen, I better hurry up, not that you come after me just to do so.’‘Oh yeah, you better. And make sure nobody kidnaps you from the streets, youlook way to good like this.’

Nozelsmiled at that compliment and pressed one soft kiss on Leon’s mouth.

‘Thank youvery much. But now I have to get going, so get your hands of my ass,Vermillion.’

Leonlaughed and did as he was told. The silver haired stood up and then gatheredthe rest of his belongings he would need, like his keys and his coat.

‘Have fun tonight Nozel. And don’t do anything I wouldn’t do.’

‘Likestaying sober? Don’t worry, I hadn’t planned on doing that anyways.’

The lastthing he heard when the door closed behind him was Leon’s warm laugh fillingtheir home.

Yeah, hereally couldn’t wait to get back here fast enough.

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‘Ah, LordSilva. Exactly on time, your family awaits you in the dining hall.’

Heacknowledged the Servants greeting and headed of to the named location.

‘Have theroyals from Heart kingdom arrived yet?’

‘No, not yetsir, but they are expected to arrive in the next half hour.’

Very well, that gives me enough time tomentally brace myself for this circus.

The meetingwith his relatives was as cold as always. It was like a trademark of the Silva’s,the unfamiliarity of this family.

Theanticipation in the room was nearly tangible, as many of the people presentexpected great business advantages being born from this evening. The want toget richer even overpowered the cloud of boringness which hung low over theroom.

The constantchatter over trivial things came to a halt when a servant announced the arrivalof the esteemed royals of the heart kingdom.

They were a bunch of redheads,funnily enough. The representatives were 5 people, 3 Males of various age and 2females.

Nozel, and probably many of theother Silva’s, instantly thought of the younger Vermillion generation, butbesides the hair colour and the gender distribution, there was nothing incommon.

Even the hair was a darker shade ofred, more like red wine than fiery gold Vermillion.

He was introduced to the Royals bythe current head of house Silva, and while greeting a male that was around hisage he found himself observed thoroughly by dark brown eyes in a golden skinnedface.

The other male held his hand asecond longer than necessary, too.

He kept up his noble façade as muchas possible, but he felt the need to raise a brow at the mans behaviour,something that must have set of some sort of a challenge. The taller man shothim a small grin, and he knew this night just got even more arduous.

Its got to be this damn suit. I should have stayed home after all, atleast my redhead knows how to flirt without nearly making a scene. And this wasonly the first greeting, too.

He supressed a sigh. 

At thetable, when they began their meal courses, he found himself sitting across thebold man.

That one hadno problem starting a conversation with him, and only him. All those who triedto get in would be casually thrown off, when the redhead would ask directquestions at Nozel.

The latterwas slowly getting more and more annoyed. The rules of being a good hostwithout bringing shame to your family involved answering all questionsappropriately, but it also kept him from getting a real chance to eat anythingfrom the 5 courses that were presented.

To makematters worse his wine glass was constantly refilled, and it seemed to be acustom of the Heart kingdom to toast at every given chance, so he was forced todrink more over a short amount of time than he actually liked.

After themeal was finally over he felt dizzy and tired.

God, I want to go home so badly. This is all sobothersome and stupid, and this damn hearty is driving me nuts.

Stay strong Nozel, not much longer until youand Leon can have a good laugh about it all.

The peoplepresent in the room started to leave the dining hall, the men for the cabinetwhere they were going to talk about a possible new treaty which actually hadbeen discussed between the families for a while now and was nearly ready to befinalized, now it was just a matter of details and handshakes until the wealthcould start to accumulate.

As expectedit all went over smoothly and both parties were content with their shares ofthe deal. The mood was great and the head of the Silva’s ordered champagne tocelebrate the new business relationship and even some cigars.

Nozel wasglad that the most sensitive part of this get together ended in such afavourable way and looked forward to soon escape the burning looks from theyoungest Heart royal.

But thequick getaway turned out to be wishful thinking.

Again, hefound himself caught in an endless circle of toasts and refilled glasses, andhe felt how he slowly lost his cool demeanour.

His face wasquite flushed, and he really had to concentrate on his words as not to slurthem in an undignified way.

Suddenly hefound himself cornered by the hearty again, asking him a million questions, onebolder than the other.

An ‘Are youavailable, by any chance?’ caught him finally of guard and he couldn’t help butlook at the other with an I-beg-your-pardon-mimic.

I never thought I would meet someone with lessclass than solid. At least he wouldn’t dare to ask that sort of question tosomeone in a room full of business partner. The insolence, I swear.

 But theother wasn’t done yet. He sneakily placed a hand on Nozel’s hip, close to howLeon had earlier that evening, and added up on his question.

‘Like, areyou single?  Because I think we shouldget to know each other better.’

Seeing thisas the last straw he decided to leave the room for the night, stating importantmagic knight captain duties as the reason to head to bed now and leave earlierthan anticipated tomorrow.

After thedoor closed it hit Nozel just how bad the air inside had been, with numerouscigars being lit in a sealed room. He was hungry, drunk and the world turnedaround him. Also, he was unbelievably tense.

A suddenbout of feeling sick had him quickly stepping out on a balcony that wasconveniently near. He gripped the balustrade for support and closed his eyes,so his view would stop spinning just for a few seconds.

God, the last time I couldn’t see straight I atleast had Leon with me. I want him here now. I want him to take me home.

He felt ahand on his shoulder and nearly jumped before turning around. All he saw was atall man with red hair and his brain set off a little firework of endorphins

He really came!

Nozel smiledat the other and put his arms around his neck, still not quite able to focushis eyes.

‘Speak ofthe devil, there you are. Are you finally going to get me out of this damn suitnow, or what?’

He heard adeep chuckle, it sounded a bit off but before he could spend much thought onit, a hot mouth met his own, aggressively kissing him while pressing his backagainst the balustrade.

The redheadplaced a knee between his legs and added pressure while one hand wandered downto Nozel’s ass and stayed there in a firm grip.

The Silvamoaned at the feeling of all this, and he wanted to retaliate the administrationsby moving his head to the others neck and covering the area in attention.Before he could even get really started he felt a harsh tug at his hair and hishead was pulled back up again.

Thisdispleased Nozel very much, he hated it when someone mistreated his hair andLeon knew that!

Oh, I’m going to top for this. How dare he!

The sightof the scowl on his face was seemingly only amusing to the other, who laughedand then again pulled at his hair to get better access to his ear.

A stranger’svoice spoke to him, his hot breath felt like it left scorched marks on Nozel’sskin as the words reached him.

‘Nuh-uhBabe, I am the one in command here, get used to that. And now stop pouting, ifyou really want to suck something so badly I am sure I got just the right thingfor you later!’

And thenhe bit in his ear.

All sirensin Nozel’s head went loose and he pushed the other off him, who looked quitepissed and insulted at the smaller mans actions. Nozel stared at him, eyes widein panic and confusion.

All theSilva could see were deep red hair, darker skin and brown eyes that shot himangry glares.

This is not Leon! Oh god, this is NOT my Leon!!What have I done? I just… Oh my god, I can’t…I can’t breathe, I got to get outof here.

Nozel casteda magic spell to fly away from the balcony, leaving his family behind withoutan explanation would surely earn him a scolding some other time, but right nowhe felt sick and dirty and like he had to throw up any minute now.

The othermans taste in his mouth was haunting him, it felt so wrong he wanted to cry.

He cursedthe whole damn evening, the whole damn heart kingdom and most importantly hiswhole damn stupid reckless self for letting his guard down and not being ableto hold his liquor.

I just want to go home. I just want Leon rightnow.

But how am I going to explain to him what justhappened? What I just did?

Oh, dear god, I just cheated on him, didn’t I?

Or not?

I’m so confused. I’m so so tired.

What am I going to do now?

‘And thenI decided to sleep on the couch, because I didn’t want you having to sleep nextto me after all that, and also because I was too drunk to make it up the stairswithout waking you. That’s where you found me, and now we’re here.’ Came theewhispered conclusion of Nozel’s nightmare evening.

Leon wassilent, having to take this all in was quite something.

Yes, now we are here.

And I am none the calmer. If I ever meet that manI will punch him in the face for just…being so disgusting.

He pinchedthe bridge of his Nose and closed his eyes. He was tired and getting a headache.That came with the unusual amount of tears this day, it seemed.

He sighedand took the others pale form in. He looked so small and ashamed that Leon reallycouldn’t bare it. It was a cursed day for sure. 

At least it came with my sister and her unusualbout of wisdom, too.

‘So, youonly kissed the man because you thought he was me, correct?’

Nozelnodded.

‘And youstopped the second you realized it wasn’t me?’

Again nodding.

Againsilence.

Basically, he didn’t cheat on me with theintention to cheat. He just mistook the man for me and made out with him, whichstill makes me mad beyond believe, but…but I guess we can work it out?

‘Nozel?’

‘Yes?’

‘I amstill mad. And disappointed and hurt, and I can’t quite forgive you for allthat happened today.’

The otherbit his lips and looked away. Leon could see a suspicious shimmer in Nozel’seyes and knew the other bit back tears.

‘But I don’tblame you for yesterday. I believe you, when you say you made a mistake byconfusing the man with me, so well, I_ I would like to give you, us, anotherchance. Would you like to try to do so, too?’

Now the tearsfell from Nozel’s eyes as the Silva silently cried. He looked like he couldn’t believehis luck. Then he nodded again before hiding his face in his hands. A sobwrecked through his body and Leon was up by his side in a heartbeat.

‘Oh god,Leon, I am so sorry.’

Heembraced to other and felt comfort at how well their bodies fit together. Hepressed his head down in the others hair, feeling how his own tears came backto his eyes.

Thisreally had been a stressful day, but he also realized how much he had neededthis hug, this comfort today. He felt like his heart started to heal. Slowly,but it did.

‘It’sgoing to be okay, okay?’

Nozelnodded against his chest, and they both stayed like this for a small eternity,just crying and holding each other, recovering from wounds they neveranticipated.

As theygrew tired they moved to the couch, just sitting close and kissing each other’stears away.

They fellasleep holding each other close, as the light of a new day shone through thewindows.

It waslike a promise of warmth and a new beginning.

A promiseof healing.

A promiseof loving.

A promiseof hope.

And inhope have faith.